The time right after I made lifetime at Weight Watchers was amazing! For awhile I couldn't STOP losing weight...my Dad told me to eat more, and I thought I might be sick. Me? Not able to STOP losing weight?? I was working out consistently, so I not only looked thin, but I was toned too. It is the best I think I've ever looked, and it seemed easy. I had figured out how to stay on Weight Watchers, but also allow myself occasional "cheat meals." It had become a way of life for me, not a diet, and I did it without much thought. 7 months after I hit goal, my sister had her first baby, a boy. Shortly before her baby shower, my Mom was visiting, and we were shopping. Right before we left, I said I wanted to take a quick look in the Ann Taylor outlet. As soon as I walked in, I saw a beautiful white and tan dress. I tried it on on a whim, and it was perfect! My Mom and I stood and looked at my reflection in the dressing room mirror. How could a girl who had to shop at a plus-size women's store as a young teenager be standing there in a size 4 dress??? I bought the dress and wore it to the shower...I felt so beautiful that day!
When I went shopping for a dress to wear to Michael's baptism, it was magical. I ran to Macy's after work one Friday and grabbed a few dresses. The first one I picked up was different than anything I'd ever worn. It was a knit, fitted dress in a snakeskin pattern with a thin black belt. I thought it was a longshot, but it caught my eye. I tried it on first, and it fit like a glove. I couldn't remember ever enjoying dress shopping so much! I had gotten to a point where, if I didn't like how something looked on me, I blamed it on the clothes and not on my body. If something looked ugly, it was because IT was ugly, not me. I bought the dress and, at the baptism, as I was chasing my Godson Jack around the church, my Uncle Artie took the kind of picture of my Godson and me that I had so desperately wanted from his baptism. It is one of my absolute favorites. As bad as I felt about my body at Jack and Mady's baptism is how good I felt about myself at Mikey's.
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